Dear Diary...

firstly, thanks verena and clifford for the printer info. the bloody thing's still not working but at least i got it installed. daddy should never have moved the stupid thing around the 2 comps. i think something's gone wrong with its insides. (here's where i start cursing and swearing). so i have to fix what daddy screwed up. why? cos i'm apparently the best techie in the house and cos i'm the freest person in the hse. whatever. freaking thing still can't work. should get a professional geek to fix it. it's way beyond me. and mummy's complaining that by downloading the installation thing from the net, i unleashed so many viruses. is that supposed to be my fault?! i keep telling her that we need to install the anti-virus software. (curse and swear) and she's nagging me cos in cas andrew needs to print something how? i can't believe his school charges students for printing. what kind of school does that?! well, i don't care. if he needs it, he can jolly well fix it himself. so pissed off with the stupid thing.

moving on. yes verena i know i owe you for the printer info but no, i'm not going chinatown. partly because i cannot stand chinatown during cny period. crazy place. i do my cny shopping during christmas time. seriously. actually the main reason is that it's the same day and time as my junior's concert. i already told her i would go when i last saw her during christmas. i'm not going for the baking on sat cos it's my uncle's birthday. my mother didn't even allow me to go to my best friend's place for pre-cny bai nian on that day, let alone baking cookies. understand the older generation? nothing i can do about it. :p

next, reading verena's blog, no verena, you haven't failed. you just haven't succeeded yet. sometimes, things may take more time than others. comparing the guys and gals may not be a great idea. the guys have soccer to build their bonds (btw, look at andrew. he's not exactly that enthu). but doing something like that is great to build team spirit, friendship... the gals don't have that medium. like you said, the group is really diverse, esp the gals. the one and only thing we have in common is LC. that may not be adequate to build bonds that are strong. maybe the gals have different priorities. maybe some of us have taken for granted that LC will always be there. speaking for myself, i think that the youth grp and the church will always be around. so i choose to hang out with my friends outside church cos i don't know when i will see them again while i'm sure that i will always see the LC people every week. last year, i chose to study instead of going for LC stuff cos with/without LC, life still goes on. get it? the bond the gals have with LC may not be strong enough to override other priorities and clashes of interest. but i'm not exactly worried yet. LC will only fail if the spirit of youth in st stephen's dies.

moving on. randall did very well on sunday. i had no idea he sounded so good. wanna get him to do some high masses. no pressure randall. i know you can do it. his teaching the congregation really cracked me up though. sounded like some commander. hey, a little pleasantries won't hurt you know. aiyo. maybe he's nervous lah. but well done anyway. the coming ash fri/1st lent psalm has a 2 part refrain. considering whether want to get the choir or the guys to do the harmony part with the cantor. should be fun. something new. we'll see.

went back mj to get the tickets from shi yun. same time, wanted to visit the choir. but didn't have much time to visit. kwei appeared before i had time to socialise. heard that miss lai begged kwei to stay so he did. but i also heard that he's scaring the j1s. apparently at the 1st practice, he was in a bad mood and he scolded them. and when kwei scolds, people can cry. but judging from the number of shoes outside, the choir isn't doing too bad. shi yun says my altos are really pathetic now. aiyo altos, what happened?! didn't have time to find out what she meant though. saw eugenia (she cut her hair but she's still the same sweetie), cass, kok yong and some others but i couldn't register their faces. nice to go back. miss them lots.

results will be out in a month. i still have no idea where i want to go and what i want to do in university. some people are just so sure of what they want to do but i have absolutely no idea at all. one thing i'm sure, i will not do anything econs related unless i have no other choice. most definately something arts based. *sigh* love to be music teacher but i don't think i qualify. love to do something with maths too but what? statistics is useful but i hate stats. never got the hang of it. maybe take some '-ology' and open a flower shop. don't know. that day, poh lin was saying that we should apply to SMU as siamese twins. cos she's good at verbal but not at essay while i'm good at essay but not verbal. so we go as siamese twins, she handles the interview and i do the essay part. haha! nervous about the results but not so nervous yet. from o level experience, i'll only start feeling really nervous 5 minutes before i get the results. thank goodness i'm a101 index no. 2. don't have to wait so long for it.

ok, this is getting really long. time to stop. ta-ta for now!